New Year 2013!!!

The last few days my TV has been bombarded with ads about weight loss.  I still need to lose another good 40 pounds to reach a goal that I have set for myself.  I will still be sticking with Weight Watchers this year.  Although all these ads make me want to eat.  I see these ads from NutriSystem and Jenny Craig, and I am like where is the ice cream??? I guess because all they do is talk about food on the whole commercial.  I am looking forward to a great 2013...praying that God showers down His blessings on us and our family and friends.  I started a thankful jar today.  You write on a piece of paper everyday something you are thankful for...I can't wait to read them next year on New Year's Eve.

Today we started the new year off with our Silver Threads meeting.  We had the highest attendance ever with 75 coming to share New Year's with us.  I can't wait to see how God is going to use this ministry in 2013.

2013, I am ready for you....can't wait to see just what God has in store for me this year!!

Saying No to a Second Chance!!!

I was watching a TV show where a woman had the chance to have another baby.  Her one and only child is about to graduate high school, and now this chance to have another baby is staring her in the face.  Her answer is no, and she offered  no explanation why she didn't jump at this second chance; but I understand how she feels.

In 1994, we had twin girls that didn't come home.  Then in late 1995 once again I was disappointed when I miscarried twins.  I vowed then that I wasn't going to try again, that the pain and my emotional state was too fragile to do this again...only to be disappointed.  There was a longing of wanting a child for many years, but it was always filled with hugs and love from children in our various churches.  I had finally accepted the fact that the pitter patter of little feet would not grace our home.  In some ways not having children had its advantage....could go to Walmart at 3 in the morning, go on vacation and not worry about school schedules, no worries of braces or how to pay for college.  Then in 2006 I was diagnosed with uterine cancer.  Then the choice was no longer mine, but now...I can't have children...or so I thought.

That summer my Oncologist told me that if I biopsied negative 3 times in a row, we could talk about having a baby.  The first two biopsies were negative, and now this dilemma was staring me in the face.

This was a chance that I should have jumped at...been thrilled beyond all measure, but I wasn't.  Now I was 36 years old and by the time we actually had a baby, Mark would be 50 years old.  Not to mention that in 2004 he was diagnosed with Factor 5 blood clot disease....to which is a genetic disease.  Our baby could be born with this only to die at a young age.  I physically or emotionally didn't think I could go through another loss.  I felt guilty for deciding that my answer would be no.  I never did really tell anyone that it was no...because biopsy number 3 was positive and the dream was shattered once again.  I can understand a woman deciding not to have a baby after so much time as passed.

I love the life that God gave me....although I often wonder what if??? But I am completely satisfied with loving on my nieces, nephew and the kids of our church.  So don't think hard of someone if they don't jump at a person not jumping at the chance to have another baby, they may be completely at peace with their decision.

Obsessed to Say the Least!!!

I have said over and over that I am ADD...although I have never been tested, but I know that I have to be.  I focus on one thing for a moment, then I am off to another thing.  Right now I am obsessed with cowgirl boots.  For someone who is scared of horses, I am in the western look right now.  I finally got my grey cowgirl boots this week thanks to my mom.

 

 

As you can see....I am just a tiny bit obsessed.

 

 



I haven't worn the grey ones yet, but I can't wait to wear them with some denim leggings.  I now have some grey, brown and red boots.  Plus some black and brown low top boots.  I really not sure what has brought on this obsession except for the fact that I watched Dallas this year.  That might have driven me to go for a look that is totally not me...usually.

Through my obsession, my main goal was to get a pink pair....I finally found these on the web and I plan on ordering them tomorrow for myself.  I just love the pink ones.  Since I have lots of pink clothes, I thought I would have no problem matching them up with something.  This is just a glimpse of how my brain works. 

Christmas in Heaven!!!

My First Christmas In Heaven


I am having my first Christmas in Heaven
A glorious, wonderful day!
... I am standing with saints of all ages,
Who found Christ, the truth and the way

I am singing with the heavenly choir
I- who so loved to sing!
And, oh what celestial music
We bring to our Savior and King

I am singing the glad song of redemption,
How Jesus to Bethlehem came,
And why they called His name Jesus,
That all may be saved through His Name!

Oh, loved one, I wish you could be here!
No Christmas on earth can compare,
With all of the rapture in glory,
I witness in Heaven so fair!

You know how I always loved Christmas,
It seemed such a wonderful day,
With all of my loved ones around me,
We were so happy in every way.

Yes, now I can see why I loved it,
And, oh what a joy it will be,
When all of my loved ones are with me,
To share all the glories I see!

So, dear ones on earth, I send greetings,
Look up! Til dawning appears,
And, oh what a Christmas awaits us,
Beyond all our partings and tears!
Anonymous

 

This was the first Christmas in years that I haven't talked or gone to see Nanny Sizemore.  I will admit that during the busyness of the season, it didn't weigh on my mind much.  But this past week, I have really missed her.  As I learn new recipes or figure out a way to make things simple when cooking...I would call her and share my new found knowledge.  I thought a lot about her last Sunday when we cooked breakfast for our Sunday School class...normally, I would have called her and told her all about it.  I would have called her and describe all my cookware that I received for Christmas this year.  It is hard to say that I wouldn't want her back, because she was in great health and had her right mind...she was self-sufficient...until falling out of the attic.  The only reason I wouldn't want her back is that she is finally with Papa Sizemore and I know she has longed for 24 years to see him again.  I also wouldn't want her back if she was going to decline in health.  I know that her first Christmas in heaven was spectacular.  Although at times, mine was a little sad...especially when I wanted to share something with her, but I know she is having a great time.  Just missing her a lot right now.

 

It all Comes Down!!!

Today's weather was an improvement over yesterdays.  It was cold, but the sun was out and it had dried out.  I took this opportunity to take down my Christmas decorations.  First the ceramic tree followed by the Willow Tree Nativity. Then came my big tree.  I got little mini totes to put all my ornaments in....I went to buy a big tote to put the mini totes in...didn't happen.  I couldn't find exactly what I wanted.  I am finally getting all things down and put in its proper place.  Still got my big outside wreath, greenery and my Christmas flags.  It is nice to have the house back in it's original state.  I love Christmas, but I am ready for the New Year and praying for a great 2013. 

The Day After!!!

Usually I am relieved the day after Christmas...that usually means no more chaos or running here and there.  Usually things calm down the day after Christmas.  Today was not what I wanted the day after....tornado warnings.  I am very scared of tornado's.  While the technology has improved...still you don't really know when and where they are going to hit.  The winds were blowing and the rain pelted the house.  It was messy outside to say the least.  I spent the day putting up my Christmas presents, sleeping and watching some movies.  It was leftovers for us today, and I am officially sick of turkey.  I kinda want a steak or anything but turkey or ham.  I ended up cleaning my vanity and organizing all my perfumes.  After spraying several of them it was too stuffy to continue for a while.  Finally around 3 pm the warnings were lifted and sun came out a bit.  I want to take down my decorations, but it has got to dry out a bit.  Organizing things and getting ready for next year.

Christmas!!!

 

This is what I got this morning from my hubby.  Oh, he hasn't seen naughty yet. LOL  I recently got a plaque from a friend that read, "Dear Santa, I've been really good the last couple o weeks...can we just focus on that??"  Evidently, he didn't focus on those last couple of weeks...he must have looked at the whole year. LOL

 

 

 

I asked for a set of pots and pans this year and this enamel cast iron pot.  I love cookware for someone who doesn't cook much, but that is about to change.  I am going to cook more and eat out less.  I am going to try and save more money this year...we eat out a lot, and most time we use a coupon; but it still adds up.

 

 



 

A great day with another great meal with my parents.  So full and a little miserable now, but everything was so good....especially the collard greens.  They are the #1 item they sell at the NC Farmer's Market on Christmas Eve.  Truly a Southern thing.  It has been a wonder Christmas season this year.  Looking forward to a great New Year.  Hope that everyone that reads this blog (all 2 or 3 of you) were blessed with great times with family and friends and made more memories to tuck away. 

 

Merry Christmas to your family from me!!!